Beyond Fear: How the Andaman Sea Helped Me Heal a Past-Life Memory

There are some journeys that entertain us.

Some educate us.
And then there are a few rare journeys that quietly heal something deep within us.

Our recent visit to the Andaman and Nicobar Islands became one such experience for me.

During our stay at Havelock Island, my daughters excitedly signed up for a special pre-dawn kayaking experience to witness the magical phenomenon of bioluminescence at Radhanagar Beach. The kayaking was to begin at 4 a.m., in transparent boats that would allow us to see the glowing blue waters beneath us.

The moment they asked me to join them, I resisted strongly.

In fact, I resisted far more intensely than the situation seemed to justify.

I gave many practical reasons:

• “What if the boat overturns?”
• “What if the sea becomes rough?”
• “What if something goes wrong in the darkness?”

My daughters patiently addressed every concern logically and logistically. The boats were safe, trained guides would accompany us, life jackets were compulsory, and the waters were calm.

Yet my resistance remained.

That was when both my daughters gently began exploring why the fear was so strong.

As we went deeper into the emotions behind my fear, an unexpected realization emerged. Somewhere within my subconscious mind existed a deep terror connected to the sea—as though it carried the memory of death itself.

Gradually, through inner exploration, we uncovered what felt like a past-life imprint involving death in the sea. I had died in the ocean, leaving a 7 year old child behind.

Whether one calls it a past-life memory, subconscious symbolism, or cellular memory, the emotional intensity was undeniable. Suddenly my fear no longer seemed irrational. It had roots far deeper than the present moment.

My daughter then guided me through a therapeutic healing session. With great love and patience, she helped me process and release the fear that had silently lived within me for perhaps lifetimes.

Something shifted profoundly after that session. I finally agreed to go.

As our transparent kayak moved silently across the dark waters of the Andaman Sea, something magical happened. Tiny phytoplankton beneath the waves began glowing with an ethereal blue luminescence. Every movement of the paddle created trails of shimmering light in the water, as though we were floating through liquid stardust.

The same sea that had once evoked fear now felt deeply healing.

There are moments in life when nature becomes more than scenery. It becomes therapy… initiation… transformation.

We remained in the sea until sunrise. Slowly the darkness dissolved, and the horizon blossomed into shades of gold, pink, and orange. Sitting there between the glowing waters below and the awakening sky above, I felt an indescribable sense of freedom.

It was not merely a tourist experience anymore.

It felt as though life itself was teaching me something profound:
Sometimes our strongest resistances hide our deepest wounds.
And beyond those wounds often lies extraordinary beauty waiting to be experienced.

That morning, I did not merely witness bioluminescence.

I witnessed what healing feels like when fear finally dissolves into trust. 

 

When a Soul Chooses Not to Marry: A Lesson from Past Life Regression

 

 

In many families and communities, marriage is seen as a milestone that must happen at a certain age. When it doesn’t, questions begin to arise—first gently, then insistently. Parents worry, relatives speculate, and society begins to label the situation as a “problem.”

Recently, during a past life regression session with a client, I witnessed a story that offered a deeper perspective on this very issue.

A Family Carrying Many Burdens

The woman who came to see me was the third daughter in a family of five girls. She was 31 years old and deeply distressed that she had not been able to find a suitable partner despite many attempts.

Her family history carried its own challenges. Their mother had been widowed at a young age and had single-handedly raised all five daughters.

Life had already taken difficult turns for the older sisters.

The eldest daughter had married and had two children, but her husband later left her and married someone else. He now has another child with his second wife. The eldest daughter lives with her mother along with her two children.

The second daughter also married, but the marriage ended almost immediately after the honeymoon. She too returned home.

Now the third daughter—my client—was trying to marry, but nothing seemed to work out. Meanwhile, two younger sisters were still waiting for their futures to unfold.

The entire family was asking the same question: “Why is this happening to us?”

Exploring a Past Life

Because of the emotional distress she was experiencing, the third daughter decided to undergo past life regression therapy.

During the session, she entered a lifetime that appeared to be from a few generations earlier.

In that life, she saw herself as a married woman with four children. Her husband was socially active and often brought guests home without warning. She was left to manage everything alone—raising the children, cooking, preparing snacks and tea for guests, and running the household.

Despite her relentless effort, she never received appreciation or support. Instead, she experienced neglect and emotional hardship.

She endured this life silently, carrying the weight of responsibility without companionship or kindness.

Eventually, her life ended under suspicious circumstances, leaving behind deep emotional pain.

The final thought that shaped the current life

At the moment of her death in that lifetime, a powerful thought arose within her:

“I have given my life to this man. He never cared. I do not need a man. I am capable of living my life on my own”

According to the understanding of soul memory in regression work, the final emotional imprint of a life can sometimes influence future incarnations.

In this case, the soul seemed to carry forward a profound decision—to live independently without relying on a man.

 A Conflict Between Soul and Society

Now in her present life, the soul may not feel an inner need for marriage. Yet she lives in a society where marriage is still seen as a necessity.

This creates a painful conflict. Her mother worries. Relatives keep asking the same question again and again:

“When are you getting married?”

But what if the soul itself has already chosen a different path?

 A New Generation of Women

Many women across generations have endured difficult marriages marked by neglect, emotional abuse, or narcissistic behavior.

Some of them may have made a deep inner decision—consciously or unconsciously—that they no longer wish to repeat that experience. Today we are witnessing a generation of women who are less willing to tolerate unhealthy relationships simply to satisfy social expectations.

They seek dignity, respect, and emotional safety. And if those are not present, they may choose a different way of living.

Respecting a Soul’s Journey

Instead of constantly questioning unmarried women or treating them as incomplete, perhaps society needs to shift its perspective. Not every life is meant to follow the same script. Some souls may come here to explore independence, self-growth, service, or other purposes beyond marriage.

When we repeatedly pressure them with questions like “Why aren’t you married yet?”, we may unknowingly add to their burden.

What they need instead is understanding, acceptance, and support.

Moving Toward Compassion

Every individual carries a unique journey shaped by experiences we may or may not fully understand. Rather than forcing everyone into a traditional mold, we can choose compassion.

We can stand beside these women, strengthen them, and respect their choices—whether those choices lead them toward marriage or toward an independent life.

After all, a meaningful life is not defined by marital status.

It is defined by self-respect, inner peace, and the courage to live authentically.

 

What Kept Me Practicing Reiki for 29 Years: And a reflection on practice, patience, and alignment

 

“When a student asked me, ‘You learned Reiki 29 years ago. What kept you doing Reiki self-healing all these years?’

My honest answer was—experience.

Every time life challenged me…
Every time I was tired, confused, hurt, or overwhelmed…
Reiki gave me clarity instead of chaos, calm instead of fear, and strength instead of helplessness.

Self-healing became my quiet conversation with myself…
A space where I could listen, release, and return to balance.

I didn’t continue Reiki because someone told me to.
I continued because my life became lighter, clearer, and more compassionate with it. Also I witnessed how Reiki transformed my Reiki students who diligently practice daily self healing.

And once you feel that transformation within yourself, Reiki is no longer a practice—it becomes a way of living.”

When Reiki Starts Responding: Crossing the Threshold of Deep Connection

Recently, one of my Reiki students asked me a question that truly touched my heart:

“Is it possible that Reiki’s effect or impact changes over time? Earlier, I seldom felt that Reiki was hearing what I was saying. But nowadays, it feels as if the connection is much stronger—almost as if I am being heard more clearly. Is this true? And if yes, is it because of increased practice or something else?”

Reading this message filled me with quiet joy. Because this question does not come from doubt—it comes from experience. It is a sign that the student has crossed an important inner threshold in their Reiki journey.

The Threshold of Reiki Connection

Yes, Reiki’s impact does evolve over time.

Continuous Reiki self-healing practice is required to reach a stage where a deep, living connection is established. Until then, Reiki may feel like a technique—something we do. After crossing this threshold, Reiki becomes something we are.

The time taken to reach this stage varies from person to person. It depends on:

·       One’s current spiritual maturity

·       The sincerity and regularity of practice

·       One’s sadhana in previous incarnations

For some, the connection deepens quickly. For others, it unfolds slowly and gently. There is no comparison—only individual journeys.

What Strengthens the Connection?

I replied to my student with what I have learned through years of practice:

“Regular self-healing strengthens the connection. Over time, a thought crosses your mind—and it manifests.”

But there is more to it than manifestation alone.

With consistent practice, something subtle yet profound happens:
we begin to align more deeply with the Universe itself.

Alignment with Universal Will

As Reiki practice deepens, our desires slowly shift. We no longer wish from restlessness, fear, or lack.
Instead, our thoughts arise from alignment with the Universal will.

When a wish is in harmony with the larger intelligence of the Universe, manifestation feels effortless. At this stage, one naturally feels:

·       “I am being heard”

·       “Things are falling into place”

·       “Life is responding”

In truth, the Universe has always been listening.
It is we who become clearer receivers.

A Teacher’s Quiet Sadness

I have hundreds of Reiki students, and I know—honestly—that not all of them practice daily. This realization fills me with a gentle sadness, because I know what they are missing.

In this Kaliyug, where distractions are endless and the mind is constantly pulled outward, Reiki is the surest and simplest way to:

·       Stay connected to one’s inner self

·       Remain aligned with the Universe

·       Maintain emotional, mental, and spiritual balance

Reiki does not demand renunciation or withdrawal from life. It only asks for regular presence.

Why I Keep Coaxing My Students

Whenever I get the opportunity, I gently remind and coax my students to maintain their daily self-healing practice. Not out of discipline—but out of love.

Because Reiki practiced occasionally is helpful. But Reiki practiced daily is transformative.

Daily practice is what:

·       Builds trust in the unseen

·       Deepens intuition

·       Turns healing into a lived experience

A Gentle Reminder

If you are a Reiki practitioner and feel that your connection is weak or inconsistent, do not lose heart. The connection is not absent—it is ripening.

Show up every day.
Place your hands.
Sit in silence.
Trust the process.

One day, quietly and unmistakably, you will realize:
the connection has always been there—and now you can feel it.

And here is a Reiki affirmation:
“I commit to my daily self-healing. I trust the rhythm of my journey. I allow my connection with the Universe to deepen naturally.”

Pitru Dosha: A Deeper Perspective on Ancestral Karma and Self Healing

 

When Ancestral Suffering Feels Unfair

In Vedic astrology, Pitru Dosha (or Pitra Dosh) is often described as a karmic debt or ancestral imbalance. It is believed to arise from unfulfilled duties, unresolved actions, or disrespect shown to forefathers. The effects, as traditionally explained, can manifest as repeated obstacles in life—health issues, financial instability, delays in marriage, difficulties in childbirth, or a lingering sense that efforts never fully bear fruit.

When people experience such challenges, they often turn to astrologers and spiritual guides. The remedies suggested usually include Shraddha, rituals during Pitra Paksha, ancestral prayers, charity, and acts of service—meant to pacify the ancestors and seek their blessings.

And there comes a very natural question:

“Why should I suffer or do remedies for the sins committed by my ancestors?”

This question is not only valid—it opens the door to a much deeper understanding of karma.

The Forgotten Wisdom behind Ancestral Naming

In earlier times, it was common for new born babies to be named after their grandparents or ancestors. This was not merely a cultural tradition or a way of honoring elders.

It reflected an ancient spiritual understanding—that souls often reincarnate within the same family lineage.

Families were seen not just as genetic lines, but as karmic circles, where unresolved lessons continue until awareness and healing take place.

What If the Ancestor Was… You?

Here lies the profound twist.

If souls do reincarnate within the same families, then the so‑called ancestor whose actions created imbalance may not be a distant, unrelated person.

It could have been your own soul, living in a previous body.

From this perspective, Pitru Dosha is no longer about paying for someone else’s mistakes. It becomes a mirror—reflecting unfinished karma seeking resolution.

The challenges you face are not punishments. They are reminders.

And the remedies are not acts of obligation toward ancestors—but acts of self‑healing and redemption.

Why the Remedies Still Matter

When you perform ancestral rituals, prayers, or acts of service:

• You are acknowledging unresolved karma
• You are taking responsibility at a soul level
• You are consciously choosing awareness over ignorance

Rituals like Shraddha and Pitru Paksha are symbolic tools. Their deeper purpose is to bring humility, gratitude, and surrender—qualities that dissolve karmic knots.

Charity, service, and conscious living further accelerate this healing by balancing past actions with present awareness.

From Blame to Responsibility

The moment we move from the question “Why should I do this for them?” to “What is this teaching me?” transformation begins. Pitru Dosha then stops being a curse and becomes an opportunity—to break cycles, heal lineages, and evolve consciously.

When one person heals, the entire ancestral line heals through them. Perhaps ancestral suffering is not about burden—but about continuity. What was once unconscious now seeks awareness. What was once ignored now seeks resolution. And maybe, just maybe, the soul that is ready to heal it… is you.

By choosing understanding over resistance, you don’t just honor your ancestors—you liberate yourself.

Is God He or She? A Deeper Look Beyond Gender

I was recently asked a simple but profound question:
“Why is God always called HE?”

My first response was straightforward — because historically, we have lived in a male-dominated world where spiritual knowledge, scriptures, and teachings were mostly written, interpreted, and disseminated by men. When one gender controls communication, naturally the Divine begins to be addressed in the language familiar to them.

But that is only the surface.

If we look deeper into our history, we find countless women saints, mystics, and realized souls whose contributions rarely reach the mainstream. Their names were often overshadowed, their teachings minimized, and their spiritual authority questioned—even though their inner realization was no less profound than their male counterparts.

Culturally, certain sayings also emerged—like the idea that a woman cannot attain moksha,
and must serve her husband to be reborn as a man before liberation becomes possible. These thoughts reflect society’s bias, not spiritual truth.

Yet, India is also a land where the Divine Feminine has always been worshipped with immense reverence. For Bengalis, God is Maa Durga—a powerful mother who protects, nurtures, and destroys negativity.
My own family deity is Durga, and throughout my childhood, I grew up visiting the Sarkara Temple, a sacred Devi temple.

So how can we say God is only “He”?

Over time, through my practices, meditations, Reiki healing, and inner experiences, I have realized something very clearly: The Divine speaks in both voices.
The masculine and the feminine are not opposites — they are complementary expressions of the same Supreme Consciousness.

Shiva and Shakti are not two. They are one energy in two forms. Just as the fire and heat cannot be separated, the Supreme cannot be divided into “He” or “She.”

When we rise above body, identity, and conditioning, we begin to understand:
God is not a gender. God is Consciousness.
Sometimes fierce, sometimes gentle.
Sometimes guiding like a father, sometimes comforting like a mother.

And in my own journey, I have received messages, insights, and guidance from both aspects — the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine.

The day we stop limiting God to a gender, we will finally begin to understand the true nature of the Divine — limitless, boundless, and beyond form.

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When the Divine Replies: My Dattatreya Darshan Through a Brown Dog

 

There are moments in life when the Divine speaks without words…
when the Universe arranges a sign so subtle, so beautiful, that it can only be recognized by a heart that is ready.

This is one such experience — an unforgettable blessing from Lord Dattatreya.

A Long-Awaited Sign

Back in 2018, I had spent time chanting the mantra of Lord Dattatreya with deep devotion.
And like many spiritual seekers, a small part of my heart always wondered:

“Will He ever show me a sign again?”

Years passed — quietly, silently. But devotion never left.

A Lazy Morning Encounter

This morning in 2025, something gentle unfolded. I was sitting in the car while my husband stepped out to get milk. Just beside the car, a brown dog was lying lazily… simply watching the world go by.

Now, anyone familiar with Lord Dattatreya knows — in many of His depictions, a brown dog accompanies Him. A thought arose inside me, softly:

“I have chanted His mantra for so long…If He wishes, let this dog give me a sign.”

The dog did nothing. No movement. No acknowledgment. My husband returned, and we drove off. I said to myself, “Maybe it’s not the time.” I let it go.

Evening Worship… and a Visitor at the Gate

Later in the evening, I lit a lamp as usual and walked out to place it in the veranda. The moment I opened the door…I stopped in my tracks.

A brown dog — the same shade, the same relaxed energy —  was sitting right in front of our gate, waiting silently. There was no sound. No bark. No movement. Just deep stillness.

Lamp in hand, I stepped out slowly. The dog looked at me… held my gaze… and then lifted its head upward — as though saying:

“I got the message. I have come to deliver the sign you asked for.”

It didn’t get up.
It didn’t leave.
It just sat there — almost as if guarding the space —
for nearly one hour.

Then, quietly and gracefully, it walked away.

A Moment of Deep Recognition

That was the moment my heart understood: When the Divine wants to respond, He finds His own way, His own timing, His own messenger.

I folded my hands, bowed deeply, and offered my obeisance to Lord Dattatreya, whose grace had touched my life in the simplest, yet most profound form.

The Language of Signs

This experience reminded me:

• The Divine may not always respond instantly.
• But the connection remains alive.
• When your heart is open, even an animal can become a messenger.
• And the sign arrives exactly when you are meant to receive it.

Spiritual experiences are not accidents. They are invitations… reminders… whispers from the Universe. And on this day, the whisper came through a brown dog.

A Blessing I Will Carry Forever

Some experiences don’t need explanation. They just transform you quietly from within. This was one such blessing for me — a gentle reassurance that my devotion was seen, heard, and lovingly acknowledged.

To Lord Dattatreya,
I bow again.
And again.

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Awaken Your Inner Discernment

 

The video

After listening to the video above, I got a message from my Reiki student:

“This is beautiful mam. I have an issue for which I am searching for answers for a very longtime. Others also might relate to it, so about this Repeated Karmic loop or repeated situations in life which keeps on happening again and again, how much ever we try to come out of it, we get stuck at a point and think what the universe is really trying to teach us by giving this karmic loop 🔁 what are the lessons we need to learn.

How to really figure that out? And how do we really know if what we understood is right?”

Do you trust your inner knowing?

Starting with last question, “How do we really know if what we understood is right?”, it is not possible to REALLY know that what we understood is correct. It is possible for those who have been doing sadhana for years that they know they can trust their inner knowing. For others, there is always doubt, that it is just their imagination.

Know about your Karmas

There are four Types of Karma

1. Sanchita Karma (संचित कर्म) – The Stored Karma

This is the total accumulated karma of all our past lives — like a vast storehouse of every action, thought, and intention. Only a small part of this karma becomes active in each lifetime.

Sanchita Karma is like the seed bank of destiny — containing both good and bad seeds, waiting for the right time to sprout.

2. Prarabdha Karma (प्रारब्ध कर्म) – The Active Karma

This is the portion of Sanchita Karma that has ripened and is ready to be experienced in the present lifetime. It determines our birth, family, circumstances, and major life events. Prarabdha Karma is like the arrow already released — once shot, it must complete its journey.

Spiritual practices cannot erase it, but they can help us face it with wisdom and balance.

3. Kriyamana  Karma (क्रियमाण ) – The Current Karma

This is the karma we are creating right now — through our present actions, thoughts, and choices. It is the only karma over which we have complete control in this moment. If done consciously, it can neutralize past negative karmas to certain extent or create a brighter future.

Kriyamana Karma is the arrow being crafted — we can decide its direction and purpose.

4. Agami Karma (आगामी कर्म) – The Future Karma

This is the karma that results from our current actions, which will bear fruit in the future — either in this life or the next.

It’s like the arrow placed in the quiver, waiting for the right time to be released. Agami Karma shows how today’s choices shape tomorrow’s experiences.

The Karmic loop

When the Universe tries to teach us by giving this karmic loop, assess the situation. Every time a situation is coming back, is it more severe than the last time? That means you have not given attention to your deed. Analyse it with an open mind and modify your response the next time.

On the other hand, if things that come in the karmic loop are milder as time passes, you are on the right track. You are just going through the prarabdh karmas, which you must experience. Spiritual practices cannot erase it, but they can help us face it with wisdom and balance. And wisdom and balance you gain through sadhana.

This answers your question “How to figure it out?”

We have control on our Kriyamana karma

Done consciously, kriyamana karma can neutralize past negative karmas to a limited extent or create a brighter future. So basically, we must do our karma according to our dharma, and face the events in life (knowing fully well that nothing comes to us that we don’t deserve) with wisdom and balance. And to gain wisdom and balance, continue your sadhana. I have seen that for those who do daily Reiki healing practice, it becomes easier and faster.